The complex Riddle


What is so perplexing about seeing a lot of people who are in a natural state of emotional development? Is it because of their vision of something that bothers them coming to a decision of what is wrong about the thing that triggers the emotion and anxiety into them?

The backlash of the probable answer would go with the definition of a true gender as source of speculation that could provoke public bets in this modern century. Generally it is believed that the child was born female, but had started to dress and act as a man since childhood, and decides to change back from with a huge amount of hesitation. when the secret is revealed decades later onto the face of a friend. This news could provide sensation for this bizzare secret stirring the new whereabouts to debates and unseemingly spoof. As matured to this stage of the years that elapsed, has ended the turbulant troubled careers from a starter to a well experienced level facing both notoriety and acclaim plus some unncessary judgemental things.

Invariably some of those scallywags in the worshiping place would tease with the open ended questions to the name calling of a little princess despite the struggles of loafers mimic from the unsteady silence to the ensuing of discussion kicking it all off finally to the inevitable outburst of anger pushing into battle leaving scars and wounds behind to which the big brother took position and beat them like a straying animal bunch yet no complaint made from the little one. Used to be quiet and desrted in a seperate single seated bench in school for which getting called a hindu by the teacher in terms of expressing the style of soltitude and in one moment seen as a victim who must have been desperate subjugating itself to such a horrible and degrading image of not wanting to mingle to seeing the beggining of a victory of self actualization. The emotional flip in the room is so tangable to be felt. The details of silence is hidden in many layers of contridictions with the possiblity of general outline estsblishment, but it all required a provocative support.

As switched to the real point, seeing something interesting, especially a humorous chubby girl putting her chair right next to you and begins drawing pictures of particular students and writing a hillarious short tale about them, it is time that the ice is broken and familiarity gets started with one fun member of the team. The art is so fascinating that stirs excitment in you from the dumb muffling sounds into an outburst of laughters attracting attention of other students in the class resulting in more acquaintances among them. It allowed the chance of seeing something in yourself treating those moments as moments of self discovery. You have no idea what is going on in the image consisted of different personalities examining which could be always learning the most important things in life.

Had people strongly attracted to the charm of blonde green eyed lad, So handsome that drove a teacher and few students to distraction, but in contrast wasn’t distracted by them in return. A very little effimenacy was offset in the manners was changed quickly with one of the teachers mentioning it in private.  Teacher would call in corners and grab hand and ask to look into the eyes and express the effecionate emotions but at the same time shocked to see the counterpart looking down blushing in embarrasment too shy to look up which posed the question of who is the Romeo and who is the juliet in the occuring moment of the matter. The great advantage that could give was test questions hint by the teacher from which other students expressed their jealousy and anger in a non violent protest.

There are several incidents to be quoted of the historical events occurance where the circumstance was almost on the verge of exposure but it all went on hold from the decency and simplicity manners. They stir something up in you and you in return have to feel some empathy with the effort of cautiousness for their journey. You may not go where they wanted or intended and infact it is sometimes better you go where you need to instead. But, still rather than forcing an issue or giving off hints, let them explore consciously and break the puzzle of the very unknown individual with some respect in the process.

Used to be a lecturer in a very big Military School with a different infrastructure the size of a town. The first day was pretty interesting with invariably most of the people staring at you in wonder. Big glasses, blonde hair, red blouse + dark purple coat and cowboy jeans added more texture to the look, just to note that it wasn’t intentional or for attention, but just a style of clothing worn on a weekly basis. Being stopped in the middle of the way by some U.S sergeants offering help in many ways just to do a little bit of conversation to the stalking of a female soldier who thought she finally found her perfect lesbian match after years turned into a profound fascinating speculation that became a matter of extraordinary scandal in the entire university as the story got swapped from seats to another and classrooms to another. The gossip turned in a big drama with people giggling and mumbling about it to each other as seen in the walks from School building to the Defaque that made it kind of hard to dine in such a huge crowded place with some talking their way into the story and laugh about it as they nibbled on their pieces. Winter had covered all those places in white snow, from the pavement to the mountain peak. To be off the topic was to stay inside school and prepare your own fruit salad and cereal. It was healthier than the food in the messhall and besides that there was a chance to practice some cover songs.

What stabilized the mood was the support from the leading groups and appreciation of colleagues and the love/admiral of students titling you as the best instructor in the entire school. visitors from the headquarters would confuse you with the native speakers and leave off with some great comments on the outstanding class presentations. Music was the heartwarming and promising tool uniting people who showed much interest in you yet one becoming a coArtist with few others giving critics and aporoval for the soundtracks produced. Some would express feelings in private and some would go crazy in front desk with a fewer number mistaken your identity with comolete bizzare standards. But the dececncy and cautious behavior was a savior and that didn’t damage the teacher-student relations to this day. Whatever the aspect speculation on this private fascinating bizzare yet interesting life continues, until now there has been no any experience of sexual encounter with anyone and that all suggest that there could be a possibility of will have been dead virgin by the end of life expectancy years.


Author: rohullahm

Age: old enough to know better but still need to learn. Biggest fear: that someone will find my diary. Every day starts with: an alarm. Favorite song: temporary home. Hometown: parents migrating, i was born probably in the 3rd country they went, then moved to another country and right now am living in another with the intention of moving to another. As a matter of fact, i don't consider myself from any scrap but genreally an earthean. In love with: myself. Killed someone?: nope only a duckling, a conary and a puppy by accident that i regret it to this day with tears. (Was 9 -10 - 11 when it happened) Cry: yes when i read my stories, when someone is going through bad time. When someone dies and when my friends are turning out to be two faced lying evils. Number of siblings: dad, mommys, 4 sisters, 7 brothers, -1 was shot in basketball court, toronto by robbers whom he tried to stop their assault on ladies. vacation destinations: istanbul, ireland, peru, romania, saudi arabia, iceland...more Favorite food: pizza, soup, ashak. Favoritr fruit: mandarin, watermelon, pineapple Favrotie drink: carrot juice Favorite author: john grisham Favorite singer: michael jackson, yusuf islam, carrie underwood, jordan smith, jessie j, britney, sia. Favorite movie: schindlers list Favorite book: ford county Favorite drama: will & Grace Religion: interfaith Eye color: hazel hair color: brown Height: 5'9 Education: some college, a lot of training workshops, self studies and much more. Work experience: been working since 2007 Turn on: happy faces, funny people, peace, music and love Turn off: attitude, drama, fake people, war and descrimination Hobbies: dancing, singing, writing, reading, social networking and playing game.

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